Breaking Fast

I was at my mom's for breaking fast. Mom seems tired but with the new haircut but no further comment la. As usual, she cooked a lot and her cook is always the best. Hefty dinner there. Ikan masak kicap, sayur kangkung and sotong, hmmm deliciousssss!

I guess we all getting older now and berbuka puasa there tak macam dulu. But seronok tengok anak2 saudara yang buka puasa. They seems happy! Not sure tu puasa penuh ke tak ;) Paling best tengok bila Kakak a.k.a Batriesha makan, slow and surely abis! Akemok sat at the head of the table, the next MD for sure! The rest of gang seems to do their own business!

Tradition has changed. Generasi pun dah bersilih. Berbuka seems perkara biasa, bukan luar biasa. Makan dan minum sekadar menghilangkan lapar dan dahaga and for us to enjoy great moment of togetherness and gratefulness. Alhamdullillah :)

Priority

I'm having trouble to elaborate this particular word further. How much, what, who or why do we need to prioritize? Are we not sensitive enough about certain things or perhaps over do it?

Does it make our life better? How to prioritize, equally and smartly? Would it hurt those that we cared most? Are we not giving our best at times, and GOD knows how much we have!! Are we not getting the same in return? Are they doing their utmost effort to do the same? Are we in their priority list? 1st? 2nd? 3rd? OH SHIT!! Last perhaps??

Well, whats on earth could make other realize that we got to give in order to take. It's 2 f@#*%ing way! Frankly, I'm writing this with anger, agony, pain n grief, thats pretty much the same word isn't it?? DUHHH :))

F*#@%^

10th day of Ramadhan, and it's the worst weekday ever! So f*#@%^ UP!

Being A Scorpio

It's the sign of the "oldest souls". Scorpios are the most profound and powerful characters in the zodiac. Even when they appear self-controlled and calm, there is an intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. With tranquil and watchful composure, lies a strong, magnetic personality. Pleasant to be with and thoughtful, dignified and reserved, yet affable and courteous, even sometimes posses penetrating eyes.

Scorpios have intense and dramatic personal relationships. Passion, desire and power go hand in hand. Once they find true love, they can be the most faithful and dedicated partners. Don't treat them badly as you are likely to find that they will never forget or easily forgive.

Often found to be wise beyond the average and beyond their years. Often known to know all the answers, but sometimes, they too have difficulty finding the need to develop their own happiness.

Much to do with a Scorpio remains ever secret. Too often they say "no" when they really mean "yes". Others can often live with a Scorpio partner for years, but not really know them. They are different from all other zodiac signs. Differences that make them walk, work and love to a different beat.

Dare to meet one? ;)

Troubled mind and soul

I'm not well. I'm sick. I'm physically, mentally and emotionally tired. Yet, no one seems to notice. Yes, sadly no one. Sometimes it's just hard to accept that fact.

As I'm trying hard to get some sleep, my heart and mind are restless and body is aching. I just can't sleep. I don't tell much about these to others. Not even to the closes one. It's been like that for the past few years. I tend to keep everything to myself. Not burdening the rest with details.

It's to HIM that I usually turn to and hope things will get better. Can't take it sometimes, but thats just the way things are I guess. At the moment, I'm just by myself with troubled mind and soul.

Ramadhan

It’s Sunday and the 4th day of Ramadhan. Mann called around 5am to kejutkan sahur. I usually minum air. Teringkat masa kat Keramat, mom kejutkan about waktu yang sama. She would panaskan lauk, usually rendang that she prepared during eve of Ramadhan. Sometime with sardin and telur goreng, hmmm tempted betul! And bau rendang at 5 AM is seriously, nak nangis!! Dad selalu yang last bangun.

It’s been 3 years or so now. I've been bersahur or even berbuka mostly by myself. Persiapan rather modest. Nothing much. Makan apa yang ada. After all its rezeki. It’s just another day of fasting. So, sahur cukup sekadar minum. Berbuka, cukup sekadar untuk seorang. Its not good to membazir right? ;)

Meaningful Song

Yakinkah ku berdiri, di hempa tanpa tepi, bolehkah aku mendengarmu...terkubur dalam emosi, tanpa bisa bersembunyi, aku dan nafasku merindukanmu...terpuruk ku di sini, terangi dia yang sepi, dan ku tahu pasti kau menemani...

dalam hidupku kesendirianku...teringat ku teringat, pada janjimu ku terikat, hanya sekejap ku berdiri, kulakukan sepenuh hati... peduli ku peduli, siang dan malam yang berganti, pedihku ini tak ada arti, jika kaulah sandaran hati... kaulah sandaran hati... sandaran hati...

inikah yang kau mau, benarkah ini jalanmu, hanyalah engkau yang ku tuju, pegang erat tanganku, bimbing langkah kakiku, aku hilang arah tanpa hadirmu, dalam gelapnya malam hariku...

Yes or No?

Are we being too nice by saying YES all the time?? Or perhaps we could say NO sometimes?? Can't we breakaway from that circle of Yes Sir! Yes Sir! or Yes Madam! syndrome?? Worst case scenario if we compromise??

Perhaps its best to understand each other well before any conclusion. Time is essential in making decision, both in life and work. Respect the decision made and hope its beneficial. Then, perhaps we could achieve greater result in task or work given.

If wrong decision is made, well, we just have to deal with it. Pointing fingers won't help. Accept our mistakes and apologize. Get a solution. Work things out. IMPROVISE!! Make the best out of every difficult situation.

It takes two to tango, but takes one to stop, so is it YES or NO?? ;)

Tooth ache!!

Having tooth ache at 33 really sucks! seriously!!

Dumb & Dumber!

Well, its just another stupid day dealing with stupid people. Sepuluh kali nasihat pun, they remains stupid. Undeniably stupid! Very stupid! Can we change these stupid mind & attitude? Yes and no. It takes both way. If its one way, nothing will change.We can show, teach, guide and bla bla bla, but if masuk telinga kiri, keluar kanan, means, they will remain stupid as ever. Gee, how many times have I mentioned the word stupid? Hmmm, should use dumb & dumber instead!! Duhhhhh :P

Fireworks @ work!!

Its MERDEKA spirit! From every corner of KL and through out Klang Valley. A moment where everybody looks at the skies and say, its a bird!! its a plane!! NO! NO! its!! NOOOO, not even that guy wearing red spender!! its FIREWORKS LA!!!!

Yes, fireworks at work! Like my sister said last week, there's ahhhhh!! uuuhhhh!! oohhhh!! wahhhhh!! well, all sort of sounds la beside the firework itself!

Anyway, that was yesterday. I was at home resting in bed and trying to get some sleep. But today is the Independence Day. Parades, musical, dancing, events, bla bla bla. Go and watch TV and you'll know everything k!

I'm in the office now going through some work and design with graphics section. Trying out my new chair with back support! Very comfy! and, well, brb ;)